I Love This Feeling

Love conquers all but it is one of the hardest things to keep. If a glass gets broken, you can always buy a new one but if a relationship gets broken, you can never have the same one. We must love each other faithfully because the virtue of true love is not finding the perfect person but loving the imperfect person perfectly.

Love is like a jigsaw puzzle where one must arrange the pieces appropriately one by one without haste because love needs patience. Love is like your dreams, it has no limits.

All of us experience being loved or loving a special someone without something in return. I will share to you my short but interesting love affair.

We first knew each other through text messaging. Dinny, my female friend, is our cupid because Dinny was the one who gave her number to me. I still remember every detail of our relationship, it was December 23, 2005 when I first texted her. We were still strangers at that time. I was so excited to know her since Dinny told me that her classmate and best friend is sweet, jamming, and funny and a humble gal.

Fortunately, she replied to my message and she also likes to be my friend. We have the same age and we have similar likes and dislikes. From that time on, I always call her “bai” which is a Visayan vernacular of the word friend. We always share our experiences in life and all our secrets. We even know each other’s parents and siblings. We always text each other from early morning until the break of midnight hour.

I was so happy because I finally found a girl whom I can trust with. By the end of December of that same year, I felt that I had fallen in love with her. I told her about my feelings towards her and she also liked me.

From then on, I started courting her even though it’s just through text. Oftentimes, I call her on the telephone just to hear her sweet and loving voice. Her voice can erase all my regrets and misfortunes in life. Sometimes, she also calls me by surprise. Our relationship got stronger and more serious as days passed by.

Finally, we decided to meet in personal and the rendezvous was at SM mall. Actually, I was very excited and nervous at the same time on our meeting. We had a very romantic date because we had a good time chatting about our relationship. On that tête-à-tête, she honestly told me that her parents are strict when it comes to teenage relationships. However, she answered yes when I asked her if she could be my girlfriend. Honestly, I was so happy at that time and I felt that I was the luckiest guy ever born in the world. It was already seven in the evening when we went home.

To make the story short, our relationship lasted only for three months because her parents knew about our secret love affair. Her family is very conservative; they want her to finish her studies first before having a boyfriend.

I was so sad about what happened, I just lose an important piece in my heart. Definitely, it was the first time I had a serious relationship with a girl. For two months, we hadn’t communicated because her mother took her cell phone.

I soon realized that I have to move on with my life but it was not easy to get over with that relationship. I always remember her when I hear on the radio or when somebody sings the song “Officially Missing You”.

Once again, I experienced loneliness. Loneliness is when you go to sleep at night without any one to say “I love you” and when you wake up on the morning, you realized that nothing has changed, you are still alone.

The last word I uttered during our break-up was “Take care, Mary Grace Lazo”.

By the way, we started texting each other again but we are just friends as of now. I don’t want to rush things up.